I'm not afraid to compete. It's just the opposite. Don't you see that? I'm afraid I will compete, that's what scares me. That's why I quit the Theater Department. Just because I'm so horribly conditioned to accept everybody else's values and just because I like applause and people to rave about me, doesn't make it right. I'm ashamed of it. I'm sick of it. I'm sick of not having the courage to be an absolute nobody. I'm sick of myself and everybody else that wants to make some kind of a splash.